Slept the day away. It's the pain meds I'm sure. Sometimes I only take them at half dose over the weekends or when I sleep the day away as I did today. I only took one today. I have weird dreams with them too. I only say that because I've never had these vivid rather nightmarish dreams before this. So what else am I to think? Sometimes, they're so for-real that I don't realize I'm asleep. At times I'm able to wake to get myself out of a bad situation when I become aware that it's only a dream I'm experiencing.

Sometimes, I think they put me into somewhat of a dream state when I'm awake. I saw an object outside last week and then thought I'd seen it before as an object in my dreams but with an orange plaid coloring and in a tube shape. Suddenly I realized I was somewhere in between a thought and a dream..... Hard to explain but good to keep in mind. I'm an artsy type so it is kind of cool but in order to keep myself safe and especially when driving, best to recognize what's going on instead of running with it in my mind.

I got up from one of long naps late in the afternoon without pain. Then, I moved my arm and thought "Darn, it's still with me."  Not exactly what I thought but good enough for public view.

I'm starting to think about getting one of those food delivery things like Seattle Sutton or Nutrisystem so I can spare myself lifting groceries from the car. If I elect to have surgery for sure I'll get it. I will still need to get cat litter for the girls and such like but it would take alot off of me. Food for thought.

A very nice neighbor told me her husband needs a new project so she called the other night hoping I had something for him. I'd bought a little kids' plastic wagon thing online and it looked very involved to put it together so I'd shelved it for the time being. After she sid that, I saved it for him when she called. It fits in with is need to be busy and my need to have stuff done for me. I've given her alot of plants that I have extra of but still it's nice to have thoughtful people around. Not everyone does things like that.

If I have surgery, I'll need to prepare. I needed to update my will so went off to the lawyer to do that. I'll need to get my house ready. I'm disorderly by nature but will have to get things in order so it's easier for me to find things and to keep house. Then, I'll have to get more pairs of pull-on pants and button up blouses. I'll have to get myself stocked up on cat litter, my fave diet wild cherry pepsi and etc. I might have to engage a cleaning person for awhile. All of this stuff I'm thinking through right now.

It looks like my insurance company is buying my TENS unit for me which is NICE! I drive long distance with it although the universal pictorial language instructions say not to do that. It's the only way to go for me. I use it outdoors while I'm gardening too. Somtimes I take it on walks with me. The thing takes a real beating when at first I thought the cost of it was highway robbery!

I'll write more as things develop. It's my hope this journal will help someone else someday as the reading of other's thoughts and experiences has helped me. Anne